Because it is such a long road to where you really need to go – a road on which you will die and be reborn again and again – there is very little that can be significantly said to you at this time except that you overestimate your potential.  The notes we are putting up here cannot do much for you, even if you like them and feel you are advancing because of them.  It is a little sad to have to say all this to you, but deep down inside you know you are bogged-down in a very heavy cycle of karma with endless ups and downs ahead of you.  So your best bet is to forget notes, Zen, or the Tibetan Direct Path, for such things cannot work for a person on your crude, self-enclosed and neurotic level of presumption, secret confusion and background fear.  For the sake of your normalcy and peace of mind you should give up on notes and give yourself more stable inputs you can build on over time. You are just not ready for notes.  You are not even ready for lesser things, such as psychedelic drugs, sex orgies or listening to exotic music and chanting.  You need to lead a straight, clean life and be good at your job.

You would be amazed how many readers needed to heed the previous note, but are stupidly right here reading this note for all the wrong reasons.  It is incredible how many immature readers imagine they are on the verge of a big breakthrough enlightenment or short-cut to complete perfection.  No matter how many times they are warned, they just keep coming here and are driving themselves insane.  Many of them are even so deluded that they think they can teach and guide others.  Some of them are already growing foolish little cults with silly, emotional people they have managed to impress.  All this is nothing but karmic death and rebirth.

If you insist on reading this note, you better know what you are doing. Look at what went wrong with Rudy, Muktananda and Franklin Jones Free John.  Even those half-baked people had more going for them than you do.  You are not unfolding anything worth a damn.  You really need to take a long, hard look at yourself.  You know you are nowhere in all this.

If you still insist on reading this note, if you are going to keep plunging forward with your stupid confidence in your physical brain and its judgments, then at least question the validity of your physical brain as an organ of spiritual assessments or personal prospects of becoming occultly developed.  Do you see the absurd contradiction of what you are trying to pull here?  Right self-assessment of the way you employ your faculties would help you make better decisions about all this.

What ?  Are you still here?  You are making a big mistake, my child.  You are not ready for the higher cognitive energy of crazy wisdom.  You will soon draw all the wrong conclusions about it. Look how it burned out Chögyam Trungpa.  Even he wasn’t ready for it and he was a reincarnated tulku of a great meditator of Tibet !  You are in way over your head. You are deranging yourself with misunderstood notes and note-techniques.

Try going back to the themes of self-improvement and mantra confusion.  That is more your speed, child.  Do not go to the next note.

Yog-Sothoth can swallow you up and put you anywhere in the Universe.  You could even be left there to work out some horrible, nerve-wracking episode with unfriendly aliens.  But maybe that fascinates.  Perhaps you are a would-be Abdul-al-Hazrad.  Perhaps you would like to join the Starry Wisdom movement and make your monstrous Lovecraftian dreams come true.  Well, you’re the big note-reader who feels up to anything.  So invoke Yog-Sothoth and ask for a cosmic displacement of your personal existence.  Ask for help to be put in an impossible situation to work with. Impress yourself with an ultimately foolish action.  Go ahead!  Do it!  Read the Necronomicon and learn to do that invocation!

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