You have to make some fresh, new and creative effort about your consciousness before you read the next note.  Take your time about this.  You know, none of this is about merely rushing from note to note in a state of superficial excitement about aliens or the self-destructive stupidity of the Earth humanity and their insane, lying leaders.

This note would point out yet again that you most urgently need a fresh, creative effort about your consciousness.  This implies that you are not consciousness itself as such, but that you as a being have consciousness just as you have a body and have eyes to see and a brain to misunderstand notes.

Fresh, sparkling new, generative activation of greater and subtler awareness. Is this a problem for you?  Is it some kind of puzzle or mystery?  Does it feel like a provocation?  Does it feel like a needed reminder of an opportunity?  Does it come upon you as a blessing or perhaps an empowerment?  What is it with you?

Can you give yourself a voluntary sudden big awakening of dramatically greater awareness just because someone or some note suggests that you do it?  Is wanting to do it enough to do it? Or is it that some higher power has to take the opportunity of the suggestion and give you a secret inner boost that is out of your hands?  Please look into this as deeply as you possibly can right now before the next note.

Let us say that you resolve to immediately never drink coffee again because it is materially impure and bad for your physical health or to never become angry or nasty again because it is mentally impure and bad for your psychological health.  Let us further say that you want this immediate change because you have been believing Krishnamurti about not taking time on good changes because taking time just maintains the problem, the bad habit, the bad reaction tendency.  So you go for immediate cessation of the self-harming thing.  Yet, in spite of this voluntary resolve of your “free will”, you find yourself stuck in the usual habit or tendency.  You even have to admit that you are mysteriously driven by some terrible power in your old ways to keep your old ways going.  You find yourself inwardly forced to supposedly “choose” to keep up the bad habit or tendency.  Your ideal self-improvement is revealed as out of your hands.  Is that not also an area where the intervention of some higher power on your behalf would be the only thing that would give you progress toward a better personal condition?  Please look as deeply into this as you can before you read the next note.

Exhortations do come to you that you tend to try to agree with: “Be more awake and aware!” “Drop that bad habit now!” “Stop having that awful reaction when you are provoked!”  All these sound right, yet you discover that you do not seem to have the power to reach into yourself and make certain important changes.  So you begin to even become rather depressed or disturbed or confused.  Then you are further exhorted to not cultivate depression, disturbance, confusion or anxiety about your personal state.  You might even be further exhorted to “accept yourself as you are!” or “give up on personal improvement efforts, which are just ego-mania!”  Look deeply into all this, if you really can, before the next note.

Can you really choose to improve yourself?  Can you even really choose to accept not being able to improve yourself? Can you choose to believe that you do not need improvement, that you should just rot to death in an undeveloped state like normal, average people do?  Please look into all this, if you have the power to freely and deeply look, before the next note.

Can you choose to take up a mantra, zikr or self-hypnosis statement that would in fact give you self-improvement power indirectly?  Or is it that you still need power from beyond yourself, perhaps from a powerful person, to be able to faithfully sustain repetition of a mantra or statement to the necessary degree to turn on self-improvement power?  Is not the ability to take up an empowering mantra, zikr or self-hypnosis statement similar as the ability to change a habit?  Is it not itself already the problem of sustaining self-improvement?  Please look deeply into this, if you can, before the next note.

Let us say that you “decide” to try a mantra to increase your self-change power.  But what will you do if you cannot keep up sustaining faith in this mantra or statement or that mantra or statement?  Where does the power of faith or sustaining power come from if you are vacillating and confused about the mantra or statement to adopt?  How also would you go about having faith in some person to choose your mantra and empower you to sustain it?  What if you actually were to sustain a mantra only to discover after awhile that it is not giving you self-improvement power?  Would you seek a better, higher source of empowerment?  Or would you just give up on self-improvement and carry on futilely?  Try, if possible, to look deeply into all this before the next note.

Some great spiritual leaders say that mantra, zikr or self- hypnosis statement repetition is a dull, stupid waste of time that imprisons you in a tradition or culture.  Others say that it is useful on certain occasions, but you of course have to somehow find out what those occasions are or you have to have faith in a teacher to tell you.  Yet others say that without the mantra, zikr or self-hypnosis statement you will never, never, never get the missing self-improvement power and move forward to your possible Divine perfection and immortality.  If any of this is an issue for you, can you resolve it?  Do you have the power to resolve it?  Does a higher power have to help you resolve it? Please look deeply into all this before the next note session.

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