Have you ever caught yourself worrying about things that are not to the point of the main personal challenge you are facing?  Do you sometimes find yourself spending a lot of mental energy considering what someone is going to do or fail to do toward you?  Are you in command of your world and your life or do you find your world and your life making you dance to their tune while bending you out of shape and encouraging you to neglect important areas of self-change and self-discovery?  Having troubles getting your priorities right?  Is there fragmentation and self-contradiction in your “free will”?

Life is chronically subject to recurring episodes.  Some of these are peaks of great pleasure or entertainment, but others bring pain, suffering, crisis, fear, anguish or personal loss.  The wheel of destiny is always turning.  All episodes have beginnings and endings.  Between episodes are the lulls, the interludes, where we are subject to a kind of empty boredom or a restless excitement, an eagerness to be active.  During these lulls we can merely keep busy somehow or we may find ourselves brooding in confusion about ourselves and what is really possible for us.  Our priorities are not always clear, so we sweep a lot of deep issues under the rug and just carry on by doing some chore, reading a book or chattering to one another without real depth of understanding or higher awareness.

Can you deeply question the whole process of your bodily life in your physical world?  Are you able to find the place in yourself where you are truly real and know what to do?  Do you see the beauty of a deep sense of something joyous hidden within your own selfhood?  Are you able to meditate on it and catch hold of it for yourself directly of your own experience of your inner being?  Are you able to give the highest priority to this meditation of self-revelation, self-awakening?  Can you learn to rise more often beyond your episodal consciousness, beyond all those outer endings and beginnings that usually keep you too occupied in anxious imaginings and useless considerings of others?  Can you stop wasting your life in secondary priorities?

All of these things are being brought up to you here so you will ask yourself what kind of thinking increases your spiritual awakening and self-realization as opposed to what kind of supposed “thinking” just keeps you in self-enclosed spiritual stupor.  You can learn to see better where your mental trends are leading you.

When you read an article such as this one, the way you hear and think about it is just part of an unseen higher process at work in your Spirit.  You do not yet comprehend this higher process because your present cognitive system is not configured for it.  For now you will just have to take it on faith that a higher power is at work within your inner Spirit beyond your usual spiritual judgments and contradictions.  Your priorities are being sorted-out to some extent from beyond you in higher dimensions of yourself where you are not often aware of yourself if at all.

Your job in all this is to not seal off your mind against taking in greater truth and wider perspectives than you presently possess.  You must not remain dogmatically fixed in your present views of spirituality, of who’s who and what’s what.  Many of your confusions about your priorities and your failures in self-transformation are direct results of your self-enclosed beliefs, disbeliefs and assumptions.  Most of your ideas on what is or is not possible for you or others are actually quite wrong.  You need paradigm shifts in many important areas.  You need to deconstruct and reconstruct your entire worldview.  You do not know what is really going on within yourself, your life and the world out there.  Some of your personal habits and routines are hurting you and creating a difficult future.  All of this needs a greater inner awakening and more robust personal initiative.  Most of your problems with your personal priorities are connected with unseen mysteries of your will, which is connected with the ways of intent in your Spirit beyond your usual understanding of all this.  Getting directly clear about all this in yourself is your central existential project that requires more than you have given it so far.

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©2005 Kevalin Absoluto